7.5.22 Hero

"You used to be my hero"

That's what she said. She always put me on a pedestal, she'd go on and on about how amazing and strong I am. She was the one who encouraged me and inspired me. She was always so proud of me. And today, while lovingly hugging me, she whispered "You used to be my hero." The words were like a knife to my heart. She was the one person who always saw the greatness in me, the happiness in me, and my love for life.

She always knew what to say and how to help me fight for good, fight for the light. She trusted me, took what I said as truth and believed in me. And now, it's like she took that crystal heart and shattered it into a million pieces. I'm not her hero anymore.

I know that I don't have to be superwoman anymore. I shed my cape about a year ago. I came to learn that I don't have to do it all and that's OK. But deep down I know how amazing I am and she always saw it too, even at my worse.

So this, this was crushing. Maybe she was hoping it would reignite my fight, but all it did was full me with sadness and pain.