7.28.22 Monster

There is a monster inside of me. It's trapped. It's pushing, pulling, digging, doing anything it can to get out. I can't stand it. I just want it to stop. I just want to feel normal; calm, chilled, happy. Not like I'm going to crawl out of my skin and lose it at any moment. That's what I feel. I feel crazy. Maybe I am. But crazy isn't just a stigma, it's there because it hurts so much it makes you just want to act out. To make it stop. To make it go away. Please go away. I don't want to show the world my crazy. I don’t want to show the world my monster.