4.11.21 – Codependent

I’ve been wanting to write for a while, hoping that things will come out, sort out and be less confusing. I don’t know if I am scared of not having clarity or of what’s about to come next,

D- I love you so much! You are amazing and so strong. I am so proud of you. You have no reason to doubt your actions or feel bad that it took this long. I am NOT upset. I just want to understand so I can learn and not have history repeat itself again.

What I have learned: I am a codependent. I don’t remember a lot of my childhood, bits and pieces have been poking their head through the steel doors that I put up but for the most part, it’s a blur. I do know that I was desperate to get out, to get away.