12.6.22 Never

I'm here. Doing things I never thought I'd be doing. Living a reality that I never thought possible.

Never did I think that I would be getting treatment for mental health. Never did I believe that I'd be struggling with depression, OCD, severe anxiety. Never would I have guessed that I would be on medication to help me cope. That I would self-harm and reach out to crisis prevention lines.

Never did I believe that I wouldn't have to fight so hard to be happy. Never did I image that I can just be, without having to do or say. Never would I have guessed that I could be calm doing things last minute. That rushes wouldn't be unbearable. That I would have more moments of peace than stress.

Never did I envision that my life would look the way it does. It's been a long, rough journey, but I wouldn't have it any other way.